Holidays = Instant Anxiety for me. Not quite sure why. Just the way it’s always been. What to wear, where to go, what to bring. Moving fast. Not stopping to breathe in between. Then suddenly a screeching halt. In a sense Holidays stopped for me. I live them through the lives of others eyes. I listen from my bedroom window.. Car doors, Door bells, laughter, drunken shouts. I remain chained in my safe house. I move at a slow pace. In most people’s eyes so much time wasted. They couldn’t handle a taste test of this. Lonely Holiday-Less silent magic. I wait for life to make a move. To choose my current mood. Quiet and that’s okay for most of these made up anyway Holidays.
I hear that!! holidays = unnecessary, self-imposed pressure.
what happened to that “peaceful easy feeling” mixed with the excitement and magic of the holidays. I don’t know but I’m determined to be with people I hold dear and make memories that I don’t have to put on a credit card.
take care of you…and your ever-thinking, artistic mind.
Hi my Dear! Self-imposed pressure coming at us.. I know! I’m with you. I love how you say Memories that don’t end up on a credit card. LOL That is so true. Maybe, this year.. I’ll get to spend some time with you..! You take care of you too and your absolutely stunning spirit! I’ve missed you.. Thank you for your always sweet and thoughtful comment! and support.. I really do appreciate YOU. xoxo Love.