Thank you for Blessing me with an incredible man. A truly remarkable human being. I am so proud, humbled, grateful and fortunate to share my life with such an amazing person. ←I believe in you ↑ I do. Because, but not only because. “U” niverse) knew exactly what I needed. “U” granted my passage. ALL access. My king, Soul Mate, Daddy, Best-friend, Lover, Husband. One man to fill ALL roles. These are no easy shoes to fill. “U” granted ALL my wishes. Truly listened. Sent me an angel.. To tame the HELL out of your winning mustang race horse. You sent him to me.. to Love him. Learn from him. Ride with him. This is the ride I’m on. 10 years strong. An eternal outer body experience next level bond. Girl I AM YOURS. Mind. ALL mine. However long. Building character, foundation strong. ALL gold. No lead. He is home and I AM E.T. Meant to be.. I just wanted to Thank You My Lord for reuniting us in our physical earth bodies. Madly, Passionately is the love I feel. Overflowing out of the openings in my body. The Trinity. The Holy Grail. I hold my ♥ very carefully as I tear through.. Tread ever so carefully. I love this man. Through you ↑ I know how much he loves me ↔ Adores me. Still gets excited to score with me← Yeah, that’s me. Incredibly magnetic forces of energy. Choices. Made together. We made a deal. A pact. A contract. Plea deal. On my behalf.. Oh Heavenly Father Please help us through. No matter what. We have each other. No more wrong turns. Back alley tire burn.. Marks. √ing out. Closing ALL doors to the outside world. 24hour LOCK DOWN. We share the same moon. He gently gives me a nudge. Not a judgment. But, something more thoughtfully thought of. Mass of energy. Years of listening. Verbal kissing. My answer to any equation. I dream of the day again.. to be in his form again. I so madly miss him. Kissing him. Please promise you’ll bring him back. I believe you will. You sent him once. I believe in “U”. Absence makes the heart grow fonder and I’m suffering so.. Empty nest syndrome. My eagles on the fly.. Maybe you can’t physically see him. I have him right here ♥ His third eye always on the prey/prize. I’m ALL IN. Thank you again..
NO PRESSURE NO DIAMOND
Pressure the weight of the world. Shoulders burning. Stand TALL. Posture direction north↑ BALANCE. Breathe…. inhale exhale ~ Mantra ~ I CAN GET THROUGH ANYTHING. Continue → on forward. Much to gain. Consciousness and wisdom await. I AM so grateful. I feel everything. A diamond in the rough. Come a long way.
CURRENT STATUS: Polishing.
A worthy investment. Every mind under seize. ¤ A diamond so rare so blinding you could not help but see ¤ Your search continued through prison doors to ocean floors, Argyle Mine ♦ Pink diamond in mind. You persisted through, chisel in hand simultaneously polishing you. Flawless. Uncut. Your edge so sharp taking the chance of collapse. You never gave. You manifested me. Purely created . No carbon copy. Here I am. Cotton candy hue. A star is born. Intensely glittery unlike anything ever seen.. not even from Sotheby’s, Christie’s Or Harry Winston. 2010. Over a decade in. 
Now we are I. COMPLETE transparency. You allowed me to breathe. In knowing smothering would dim me. We bonded. Atom and Eve. We ate the fruit. But, play for keeps. Mastermind. King of my heart ♥ Queen of his. A Royal Flush when we have kids.
Here we stand. Visibility separating us. Dark matter blocked by light. That’s why at 11:33 we shut our eyes, escape this world.. and meet in another place for date night. For just like Cinderella.. our time is limited and morning comes.. we must release. Recharged we reawaken. Back here on earth. Stuck in this day again. Both anticipating 11:33.. A glimpse into him and me. Goodnight.. I have somewhere to be! ZZ zzzZ Zz
Dear Daddy…
Where r u?
Dear Daddy,
Where r u? I miss you…. Mommy went crazy and moved us to hell??! My little padded paws are getting burned. I need a pawdicure. Mommy got me some better food. Lots of vitamins and stuff. I think she’s hoping it will balance my mood.. From missing you.. Who is that doggie in the window? That’s me. It’s me.. I like these new kibbles so much more though.. But, Daddy she never stirs my food up and heats it up in the microwave like you.. She doesn’t play with me like you.. Kinda corny. Between you and me. She has not tried to put to many silly clothes on me here. Thank goodness! It’s too hot for all that. 
Daddy, I see your pictures all over. I see all your things.. So, I know you are coming back. I smell you..? Mommy sometimes wears your cologne. She is so silly.. Daddy she even sleeps in your boxer brief’s! Daddy it’s hard being the man of the house! I just want you to hurry and get home.. Where ever you are.. Rescue me! I’m losing sleep!
ox xoo x
AKA: MAN OF THE HOUSE
Merry Christmas to me..
Merry Christmas to me.. I refuse to let myself give up. First Christmas Eve ALL alone. Completely. I hear music and laughter from my window. The sacrifices one chooses.. I wish I could hear the pitter patter of tiny feet trying to sneak a peek.. But, that’s okay. You never know. I still have some eggs.. Maybe one day. I’m grateful for many things too. It could be so much worse.. I guess. I tell myself. I know it could. But, right now is.. pretty. quiet.
No Holiday Music, Parties or house-guests. I’m in another state. Of mind. Hustling, Grinding.. Eye on Fortune Five Hundred.. No more Holidays separate. This is pure madness. Sadness. Craziness. I’m not on a rant. I just want my life back. I miss my Mother.. I miss nieces.. My sisters.. My nephew.. My brothers. It changes your whole view on life. When you have too much time to think. So, much on your mind.. I could be out sharing cocktails.. But, my spirit would not be genuine. So, I will sit here alone. In thought. Dissecting until an answer appears. I will live my life day by day. Blocking out fear. I know I have been down. Let down by members in my crew.. I got you. No problem! We got you.. It’s okay. Really now I see I clearer. Family. No family. Yeah, I see “YOU”. Now, really who’s got who..? I cut off tainted energy. Christmas Day or Valentines your inner demons will not shake me and mine. My true family and friends know very well I am not speaking of them. Oh what would I do with out there love and support.. I am forever grateful and Love you with ALL my heart!
My husband will be back. His hand will be placed in mine. We will continue our journey.. He is the one I am supposed to be with on this ride. So, I sit here. Sitting back. Listening. Thinking.. I got his back and he has mine. Does not take away the loneliness, empty space next to me in bed or helping to ease my restless nights. I love him so. The emotions will ease and some where somehow I will find inner peace. Together again.. Sooner than later.. I can’t think straight. It’s a little after midnight.. Merry Christmas to ALL of you. I hope your day is magical and I pray somewhere I find some JOY in mine=mind too. God Bless and Good Night to You..
Memoirs of a Mastermind 